"The Yellow Wallpaper" by Charlotte Perkins Gilman was a very interesting short story. Not really short alittle long but interesting to say the least. I felt alittle angry when reading how the poor lady who obviously was suffering from some stage of depression was kept locked up in solitare and away from the world.
One would think that when one suffers depression that the best thing would be to surround them with Love, Friends and Family. She never got to play or hold her baby. That made me sad for the baby and her. She never really left that room with the yellow wallpaper. Maybe just a hand full of times. That alone would make a person go mad!!
In the story she explains how she love to write and that her husband who is a doctor forbids her to write. "He says that with my imaginative power and habit of story-making, a nervous weakness like mine is sure to lead to all manner of excited fancies, and that I ought to use my will and good sense to check the tendency. So I try. I think sometimes that if I were only well enough to write a little it would relieve the press of ideas and rest me." This right here makes me sad for her. They are not letting her express what she is feeling inside. I don't blame her for thinking that she is trapped in side this room of yellow. It is her that she see's becoming one with the room. it is her that she feels is trying to escape the bars that hold her in that yellow wallpaper. I wanted to scream for her. I felt like I was going to go mad along with her!
I feel so angry that she felt she couldn't speak about her feelings to her husband or too any one that was there to take care of her. "I don't know why I should write this. I don't want to. I don't feel able. And I know John would think it absurd. But I must say what I feel and think in some way--it is such a relief." She is totally crying out but in her own mind.
I love the end of the story when she knows that their time is almost up to head back to their original home and leave this mansion and the room with the yellow wallpaper and the misterious lady stuck behind it. She locks herself in the room and throws the key out the window to buy her time so she can release the misterious lady from her intrapment of the paper with the wild design. She works all night and day to rip that paper off the wall and succeeds to release her. "I've got out at last," said I, "in spite of you and Jane. And I've pulled off most of the paper, so you can't put me back!"
Great story!! :)
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Imitation...
Be a good girl...
Don't fight with others!
Share your toys with others...
Don't leave your clothes on the floor!
Keep your room clean...
Always say yes Sir no Sir!
Respect your Elders...
Do your homework!
Don't get detention at school...
be on your best behavior!
Don't fight with others!
Share your toys with others...
Don't leave your clothes on the floor!
Keep your room clean...
Always say yes Sir no Sir!
Respect your Elders...
Do your homework!
Don't get detention at school...
be on your best behavior!
The Story of An Hour....
In reading the short story..."The Story of An Hour" I found it very interesting to see the way the Author chose to use emotions in a roller coaster sequence. In the the story Josephine Mallard is home awaiting the arrival of her husband. When her husbands good friend shows up to her house and has to break bad news to Mrs. Mallard. There was a really bad railroad disaster and her husband Mr. Bratly Mallard has been one if the many passangers to be named as diseased. She broke down in her sisters arms weeping with wild abandonment.
One she found her self done with the weeping she asked to be left alone and headed off to her room. In her room she found herself pondering with mixed emotions! Her she realized that she was no longer crying of sadness but more of over joyment. She found the words leaving her lips over and over..."free, free, free!"
In reading this I sence that her relationship with her husband was not a happy loving one. For why else would someone react in the way she did by saying free? She must of felt traped to be married to this man she called her husband.
She knew that when the time came to see his body she would once again weep. To see "the kind, tender hands folded in death; the face that had never looked save with love upon her, fixed and gray and dead." She also knew that that bitter moment would end and that the years to come ahead would belong to her. And she welcomed it with open arms.
That is pretty deep to see that someone feels free from some one they were supposidly in love with.
She claimed to have loved him at times but only sometimes. How could some one love someone at times? Love just doesn't come and go! Relationships have their ups and downs...this I know!! But why would she have stayed with this man for however long if she felt unhappy and unloved? Now that he has passed away she reconizes her true feelings and her soul is crying out. "Free! Body and soul free!" she keeps on whispering.
She finds herself pondering on the idea of living the rest of the years, Spring days, and Summer days and all sorts of other days just her to be her own self. She prayed in happiness that life might be long. when only yesterday she shudder at the thought!
When she composed herself she went out of her room to join her sister and husbands friend Richard who were both waiting for her to help her get through this difficult time. As she joined them down stairs there was someone entering the front door.
In enetered her husband Mr. Brently Mallard. He had been far from the scene of the accident and was not even aware it had occured. Mrs. Josephine Mallard let out piercing cry! She was pronounced dead of a heart disease--of the joy that kills by the doctor who was called in when she collapsed.
This ending I found very interesting. It was definatley the Climatic Moment in the story. It is sad and silly at the same time. She felt so trapped that when she heard of her husband being dead she found herself elited with happiness and freedom. But when she saw him standing at the door she went into shock of disapiontment and died! She did find a way out by dieing and leaving him but I don't think it was truely the way she had invissioned it!
Very intersting ending to this story!
One she found her self done with the weeping she asked to be left alone and headed off to her room. In her room she found herself pondering with mixed emotions! Her she realized that she was no longer crying of sadness but more of over joyment. She found the words leaving her lips over and over..."free, free, free!"
In reading this I sence that her relationship with her husband was not a happy loving one. For why else would someone react in the way she did by saying free? She must of felt traped to be married to this man she called her husband.
She knew that when the time came to see his body she would once again weep. To see "the kind, tender hands folded in death; the face that had never looked save with love upon her, fixed and gray and dead." She also knew that that bitter moment would end and that the years to come ahead would belong to her. And she welcomed it with open arms.
That is pretty deep to see that someone feels free from some one they were supposidly in love with.
She claimed to have loved him at times but only sometimes. How could some one love someone at times? Love just doesn't come and go! Relationships have their ups and downs...this I know!! But why would she have stayed with this man for however long if she felt unhappy and unloved? Now that he has passed away she reconizes her true feelings and her soul is crying out. "Free! Body and soul free!" she keeps on whispering.
She finds herself pondering on the idea of living the rest of the years, Spring days, and Summer days and all sorts of other days just her to be her own self. She prayed in happiness that life might be long. when only yesterday she shudder at the thought!
When she composed herself she went out of her room to join her sister and husbands friend Richard who were both waiting for her to help her get through this difficult time. As she joined them down stairs there was someone entering the front door.
In enetered her husband Mr. Brently Mallard. He had been far from the scene of the accident and was not even aware it had occured. Mrs. Josephine Mallard let out piercing cry! She was pronounced dead of a heart disease--of the joy that kills by the doctor who was called in when she collapsed.
This ending I found very interesting. It was definatley the Climatic Moment in the story. It is sad and silly at the same time. She felt so trapped that when she heard of her husband being dead she found herself elited with happiness and freedom. But when she saw him standing at the door she went into shock of disapiontment and died! She did find a way out by dieing and leaving him but I don't think it was truely the way she had invissioned it!
Very intersting ending to this story!
Monday, March 14, 2011
Transition...
Addition-again, also, and,and then, besides,equally important, finally, first, furthermore,in addition, in the first place, last, moreover, next, second, still, too
comparison- also, in the same way, likewise, similarly
consession- granted, naturally, of course
contrast-although, and yet, at the same time, but at the same time, despite that, even so, even though, for all that, however, in contrast, in spite of, instead, vevertheless, notwithstanding, on the contrary, on the other hand, otherwise, reguardless, still though, yet
emphasis- indeed, in fact, of course, certainly
example or illustration- after all, as an illistration, for istance,
Summary-
comparison- also, in the same way, likewise, similarly
consession- granted, naturally, of course
contrast-although, and yet, at the same time, but at the same time, despite that, even so, even though, for all that, however, in contrast, in spite of, instead, vevertheless, notwithstanding, on the contrary, on the other hand, otherwise, reguardless, still though, yet
emphasis- indeed, in fact, of course, certainly
example or illustration- after all, as an illistration, for istance,
Summary-
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Second Rough Draft...
Audrey M. Schultz
3/7/11
English 1B
Reader Response Paper
In the novel, The Flowers by Dagoberto Gilb; Sonny is the main character. Sonny tells his
story about his life and the obstacles he faces. In reading this novel I chose to write my
views and thoughts in the Reader Response Theory about Sonny and how he controls and
reacts to his fears. Sonny starts off early in the story sharing an in counter he has with an
angry man who comes to his home looking for his mom Silvia while he is alone. The man
is drunk and irate. Sonny right away has to show that his fears turn into protection and
survival. “I ran to the kitchen. I found that big knife. As soon as I grip it in my hand, I (7). Sonny seems too lose himself and becomes one with his actions when his
don’t feel scared. I didn’t care if he carried a gun. He comes in I cut the dude. I held
the big knife in my hand and I’m gripping it so hard I didn’t feel like it was a knife but
me”
adrenaline is pumping.
Sonny always knows when his mom is dealing with drama because he usually tries to listen
in on her phone conversations. Almost as if he goes into an area in his mind. “I made itHe would take a lot on at such a young age, by trying to be strong for him and his mom
and what ever choices that she made. Sonny never really having any adult supervision
came and went as he pleased. Experiencing the world for himself. He finds himself
dealing with all these older adults that want things from him rather than them steering him
in the right direction. I believe that when Sonny goes to the bowling alley he is looking
for some type of affection. Mrs. Zuniga is always asking him questions about his life. She
is probably the only when who really seems to care for Sonny’s well being by feeding him
full plates of food and being his friend. She is the only one that never shows that she
wants something from Sonny. She seems to be the only genuine person in Sonny’s life.
When Sonny is there at the bowling alley I sense the calm in his in his voice. That is his
safe haven where he can just hang out and let some of his Steam out when he is angry or
upset. He bowls games to let out his frustration and bases his Score on how bad he is
feeling that day.
When Sonny is followed home by the sickie white dude he is very upset. Every where
Sonny turned there he was looking at him with a pervie look. “Inside I was screamingat him to fuck off, calling him queer joto homo and shit.(56-57).“
passage in the Novel because I experienced the same situation as Sonny. One day when I
was walking home from middle school I noticed that every time I turned on to a new
street there was this car with black tinted windows slowly driving across the street from
Me. I realized that it wasn’t a coincident that the car was turning on the same street as me
because the driver slowly lowered his window and yelled out for me to go over to him.
I was terrified. I wanted to yell out and scream “stranger or pervert” but I just kept
walking faster and faster. The faster I walked the faster the driver drove getting closer
and closer. Suddenly to my rescue I saw a familiar face, my friend Robert was riding
towards me on his bike. I started running towards him yelling…help me help me!! The man in the car took off super fast down the street. By then I was crying because I felt safe
now that my friend was there. My friend ended up walking the rest of the way home with
me to make sure I got there okay. I told my parents and they made a police report.
Unlike Sonny, he didn’t have any one to mention this to but his two friends. He felt he
had to take the matter into his own hands. He later on in the Novel confronts the perve
and throws his rock at him, hitting him in the face and making him crash his car.
When Sonny has a small confrontation with Cloyd he shares how he felt scared. “I hatedSonny always tried to
that I was afraid to leave, to scratch an itch. I hated him (126).”
swallow his pride when it came to him dealing with his step father Cloyd. As strong
willed as he was he did what Cloyd asked of him to keep the peace for his mom. Sonny
had a good way of turning on and off his temper and feelings. That is very hard to do at a
young adolescent age. He was growing up too fast and experiencing a lot of hatred all
around him and disappointments.
I did a lot of running around while I was a teen. I was the rebellious daughter always
wanted to explore the world and learn the hard way about life. My life was a little
different than Sonny‘s. I had both my parents in the same home and they loved me and
wanted the best for me, but we lacked the friendship stage. I never felt I could really run
to them for advice or my problems. They were very strict and I hated not having the
freedom that Sonny had. So I made a lot of bad calls in my time. I would take off and
hang out with my friends and not come home at times. I made my parents worry. I knew
it wasn’t the right thing to do but at that time I was selfish and thought only about myself.
One day when my dad confronted me on my disrespectful choices I felt like Sonny. I was
terrified of my father and what he thought of me. It broke me to the point that I didn’t like myself anymore. Sonny always went home to Apt.#1 no matter what. Even though
his Mom and him had a distant relationship he still loved her and worried about her.
When Bud confronts Silvia (Sonny’s mom) in the apartment and becomes loud
and rude with her, Sonny feels the need to protect his Mom. He does what an older
man would do when some one is being disrespectful.
“Don’t yell at my Mom, fuckass! (221).”
maple chair and table. Bud’s strength tore at Sonny’s shoulder muscles and forced
Sonny’s arm behind his back with one hand and locked under his neck lifting Sonny entire
body. Sonny states: “I didn’t care, I didn’t care how much he could beat me, I was going He has so much courage during the most scariest times. Any other
to find out (222).”
person might have just ran or called for help but Sonny always found the courage even if it
meant putting him in danger to protect himself or others he loved. Relating to this
passage I have found myself standing up to a man who was bigger than me to protect a
friend. Her boyfriend was being a real big jerk and he thought that by getting into her face
and threatening to hit her that he would prosper from it. I on the other hand would not
and could not ignore the situation. I ran right into the room and pulled him away from my
frighten friend who already suffered from low self esteem. I knew that he could and
would hit me but Something took over my mind and body. I pushed him up against the
wall and told him that if he laid another hand on her that I was going to show him what it
was like to be a little Bitch! I know that two wrongs don’t make a right but it was my
solution to the problem that day. I don’t think he ever expected some one to stand up to
him like that. I scared him away and got my friend to realize that she was better off
without him in her life.
We find ourselves sometimes in the worst of situations. Either by choice or because we
just can’t look the other way. I chose to focus on Sonny’s obstacles and FEARS that he
had to go through in order to survive his life, because we all go through it one time or
another in our lives. Some not so drastic but we do; and we all handle things differently.
Sonny would lose himself in the fear and act on it. Wither it be the right way or the
wrong way he had to act on it.
I never liked what I went through in my past. I had to learn the hard way and make crazy
decisions on how to deal with things. Therefore I became the person I am today. Maybe
still not the wisest person but a little more smarter and I know now what I didn’t know
then. Fear is not always a fun thing to have, but when you do have it you either
need to look it in the eye or run from it. Sonny chose always to look it in the eye and not
let it break him. I hoped that in the end he would of got away from all the drama that
surrounded him so that he could make better choices. Although he stayed I feel he was
growing every day and learning to try and become a better man. I know I have through all
of my experiences! I thoroughly enjoyed the novel.Sonny came at Bud and Bud tossed him into theI can related to this
go black inside my head, and the words, when she’d make them, were these shapes that
wormed around, spraying light that would disappear into a hole that was bigger than any
room I been in” (9).
3/7/11
English 1B
Reader Response Paper
In the novel, The Flowers by Dagoberto Gilb; Sonny is the main character. Sonny tells his
story about his life and the obstacles he faces. In reading this novel I chose to write my
views and thoughts in the Reader Response Theory about Sonny and how he controls and
reacts to his fears. Sonny starts off early in the story sharing an in counter he has with an
angry man who comes to his home looking for his mom Silvia while he is alone. The man
is drunk and irate. Sonny right away has to show that his fears turn into protection and
survival. “I ran to the kitchen. I found that big knife. As soon as I grip it in my hand, I (7). Sonny seems too lose himself and becomes one with his actions when his
don’t feel scared. I didn’t care if he carried a gun. He comes in I cut the dude. I held
the big knife in my hand and I’m gripping it so hard I didn’t feel like it was a knife but
me”
adrenaline is pumping.
Sonny always knows when his mom is dealing with drama because he usually tries to listen
in on her phone conversations. Almost as if he goes into an area in his mind. “I made itHe would take a lot on at such a young age, by trying to be strong for him and his mom
and what ever choices that she made. Sonny never really having any adult supervision
came and went as he pleased. Experiencing the world for himself. He finds himself
dealing with all these older adults that want things from him rather than them steering him
in the right direction. I believe that when Sonny goes to the bowling alley he is looking
for some type of affection. Mrs. Zuniga is always asking him questions about his life. She
is probably the only when who really seems to care for Sonny’s well being by feeding him
full plates of food and being his friend. She is the only one that never shows that she
wants something from Sonny. She seems to be the only genuine person in Sonny’s life.
When Sonny is there at the bowling alley I sense the calm in his in his voice. That is his
safe haven where he can just hang out and let some of his Steam out when he is angry or
upset. He bowls games to let out his frustration and bases his Score on how bad he is
feeling that day.
When Sonny is followed home by the sickie white dude he is very upset. Every where
Sonny turned there he was looking at him with a pervie look. “Inside I was screamingat him to fuck off, calling him queer joto homo and shit.(56-57).“
passage in the Novel because I experienced the same situation as Sonny. One day when I
was walking home from middle school I noticed that every time I turned on to a new
street there was this car with black tinted windows slowly driving across the street from
Me. I realized that it wasn’t a coincident that the car was turning on the same street as me
because the driver slowly lowered his window and yelled out for me to go over to him.
I was terrified. I wanted to yell out and scream “stranger or pervert” but I just kept
walking faster and faster. The faster I walked the faster the driver drove getting closer
and closer. Suddenly to my rescue I saw a familiar face, my friend Robert was riding
towards me on his bike. I started running towards him yelling…help me help me!! The man in the car took off super fast down the street. By then I was crying because I felt safe
now that my friend was there. My friend ended up walking the rest of the way home with
me to make sure I got there okay. I told my parents and they made a police report.
Unlike Sonny, he didn’t have any one to mention this to but his two friends. He felt he
had to take the matter into his own hands. He later on in the Novel confronts the perve
and throws his rock at him, hitting him in the face and making him crash his car.
When Sonny has a small confrontation with Cloyd he shares how he felt scared. “I hatedSonny always tried to
that I was afraid to leave, to scratch an itch. I hated him (126).”
swallow his pride when it came to him dealing with his step father Cloyd. As strong
willed as he was he did what Cloyd asked of him to keep the peace for his mom. Sonny
had a good way of turning on and off his temper and feelings. That is very hard to do at a
young adolescent age. He was growing up too fast and experiencing a lot of hatred all
around him and disappointments.
I did a lot of running around while I was a teen. I was the rebellious daughter always
wanted to explore the world and learn the hard way about life. My life was a little
different than Sonny‘s. I had both my parents in the same home and they loved me and
wanted the best for me, but we lacked the friendship stage. I never felt I could really run
to them for advice or my problems. They were very strict and I hated not having the
freedom that Sonny had. So I made a lot of bad calls in my time. I would take off and
hang out with my friends and not come home at times. I made my parents worry. I knew
it wasn’t the right thing to do but at that time I was selfish and thought only about myself.
One day when my dad confronted me on my disrespectful choices I felt like Sonny. I was
terrified of my father and what he thought of me. It broke me to the point that I didn’t like myself anymore. Sonny always went home to Apt.#1 no matter what. Even though
his Mom and him had a distant relationship he still loved her and worried about her.
When Bud confronts Silvia (Sonny’s mom) in the apartment and becomes loud
and rude with her, Sonny feels the need to protect his Mom. He does what an older
man would do when some one is being disrespectful.
“Don’t yell at my Mom, fuckass! (221).”
maple chair and table. Bud’s strength tore at Sonny’s shoulder muscles and forced
Sonny’s arm behind his back with one hand and locked under his neck lifting Sonny entire
body. Sonny states: “I didn’t care, I didn’t care how much he could beat me, I was going He has so much courage during the most scariest times. Any other
to find out (222).”
person might have just ran or called for help but Sonny always found the courage even if it
meant putting him in danger to protect himself or others he loved. Relating to this
passage I have found myself standing up to a man who was bigger than me to protect a
friend. Her boyfriend was being a real big jerk and he thought that by getting into her face
and threatening to hit her that he would prosper from it. I on the other hand would not
and could not ignore the situation. I ran right into the room and pulled him away from my
frighten friend who already suffered from low self esteem. I knew that he could and
would hit me but Something took over my mind and body. I pushed him up against the
wall and told him that if he laid another hand on her that I was going to show him what it
was like to be a little Bitch! I know that two wrongs don’t make a right but it was my
solution to the problem that day. I don’t think he ever expected some one to stand up to
him like that. I scared him away and got my friend to realize that she was better off
without him in her life.
We find ourselves sometimes in the worst of situations. Either by choice or because we
just can’t look the other way. I chose to focus on Sonny’s obstacles and FEARS that he
had to go through in order to survive his life, because we all go through it one time or
another in our lives. Some not so drastic but we do; and we all handle things differently.
Sonny would lose himself in the fear and act on it. Wither it be the right way or the
wrong way he had to act on it.
I never liked what I went through in my past. I had to learn the hard way and make crazy
decisions on how to deal with things. Therefore I became the person I am today. Maybe
still not the wisest person but a little more smarter and I know now what I didn’t know
then. Fear is not always a fun thing to have, but when you do have it you either
need to look it in the eye or run from it. Sonny chose always to look it in the eye and not
let it break him. I hoped that in the end he would of got away from all the drama that
surrounded him so that he could make better choices. Although he stayed I feel he was
growing every day and learning to try and become a better man. I know I have through all
of my experiences! I thoroughly enjoyed the novel.Sonny came at Bud and Bud tossed him into theI can related to this
go black inside my head, and the words, when she’d make them, were these shapes that
wormed around, spraying light that would disappear into a hole that was bigger than any
room I been in” (9).
Monday, March 7, 2011
Rough draft
Audrey M. Schultz
3/7/11
English 1B
Rough Draft-RR
In the novel, The Flowers by Dagoberto Gilb; Sonny is the main character. Sonny tells his storyabout his life and the obstacles he faces. In reading this novel I chose to write my views and
thoughts in the Reader Response Theory about Sonny and how he controls and reacts to his fears.
Sonny starts off early in the story sharing an in counter he has with an angry man who comes to his
home looking for his mom Silvia while he is alone. The man is drunk and irate. Sonny right away
has to show that his fears turn into protection and survival. “I ran to the kitchen. I found that big (7). Sonny seems too lose himself and becomes one with his actions
knife. As soon as I grip it in my hand, I don’t feel scared. I didn’t care if he carried a gun. He
comes in I cut the dude. I held the big knife in my hand and I’m gripping it so hard I didn’t feel
like it was a knife but me”
when his adrenaline is pumping.
Sonny always knows when his mom is dealing with drama because he usually tries to listen in on
her phone conversations. Almost as if he goes into an area in his mind. “I made it go blackHe would take a lot on at such a young age, by trying to be strong for him and his mom and what
ever choices that she made. Sonny never really having any adult supervision came and went as he
pleased. Experiencing the world for himself. He finds himself dealing with all these older adults
that want things from him rather than them steering him in the right direction.
inside my head, and the words, when she’d make them, were these shapes that wormed around,
spraying light that would disappear into a hole that was bigger than any room I been in” (9).
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Idea Paper...
I am chosing to go with READER RESPONSE CRITICISIM. I feel strongly in some of my thoughts with the novel and feel that me being able to relate in some area's of the character Sonny that this would be my best avenue to write about. I enjoyed reading this novel but wish that it didn't end the way it did. So I will focus my thoughts and veiws on what the out come should or could of been. WISH ME LUCK!!
Prediction of Sonny and the Money...
"This was, definitley, the time if I was gonna do it. This might even be the only time. If I'm gonna do it. If if if. If if if. If I'm gonna do it, do it. Now. Do it now."p158
While reading this passage in the novel I predicted that Sonny would take the money! It was too tempting for him as it sat in that drawer. I felt that he would take it during a fight between him and Cloyd or between a fight between Cloyd and Silvia. Anger would be a factor in his decision to take it.
I predicted that he would take it so that he could take his Mom away from The Flowers and start over some where new. I know that Sonny and Silvia didn't have a close relationship but I also know that Sonny loves his mom and really doesn't want to leave her alone.
But...
My prediction started to sway towards Sonny taking the money and running away with Nica. I know that he really wanted to go to Notre Dame so I felt that he would want to take Nica there to share in his dream. To see something beautiful away from all the madness that was surrounding them now.
I know that stealing is not the answer and I would never take anything that didn't belong to me! But as a prediction for Sonny I would say that this would of been the thought preocess for me!
While reading this passage in the novel I predicted that Sonny would take the money! It was too tempting for him as it sat in that drawer. I felt that he would take it during a fight between him and Cloyd or between a fight between Cloyd and Silvia. Anger would be a factor in his decision to take it.
I predicted that he would take it so that he could take his Mom away from The Flowers and start over some where new. I know that Sonny and Silvia didn't have a close relationship but I also know that Sonny loves his mom and really doesn't want to leave her alone.
But...
My prediction started to sway towards Sonny taking the money and running away with Nica. I know that he really wanted to go to Notre Dame so I felt that he would want to take Nica there to share in his dream. To see something beautiful away from all the madness that was surrounding them now.
I know that stealing is not the answer and I would never take anything that didn't belong to me! But as a prediction for Sonny I would say that this would of been the thought preocess for me!
Critique of a passage-Reader Response Theory...
On Page 141 in the Novel,The Flowers; Silvia is telling Sonny how she feels about living with Cloyd.
"I'm not happy here. I'm alittle bored, I just need to get out some." She said that more like a question and left it there to see if Sonny would say something to confirm her feelings.
Silvia spends alot of time getting dolled up to go out. I feel that she may be seeing another man behind Cloyds back. She seems to have realized that even though Cloyd provides money and a roof for her and Sonny that the fun of being in a relationship has burnt out. She was use to being wined and dined and now Cloyd expects her to be home. "He thinks I should just be here all day and dust." p141
Cloyd never really asks Silvia where she is going or who she is with. He seems to show that he is bothered by her being gone when he gets home but I never read that he forbids her to go out. He will ask Sonny her where abouts but only Sonny. She seems to always leave while he is at work but tries to get home before he gets back. I'm not sure if this relationship is going to last. Maybe Silvia will realize that by her and Sonny being unhappy their life at The Flowers is not worth the stability she seeks from Cloyd. She made it on their own before Cloyd and maybe now that Sonny is becoming a young man he will be able to help Silvia if they were to get out on their own.
Stability is always a plus but when it comes from someone who is making it unpleasant then it can be more damaging than good.
"I'm not happy here. I'm alittle bored, I just need to get out some." She said that more like a question and left it there to see if Sonny would say something to confirm her feelings.
Silvia spends alot of time getting dolled up to go out. I feel that she may be seeing another man behind Cloyds back. She seems to have realized that even though Cloyd provides money and a roof for her and Sonny that the fun of being in a relationship has burnt out. She was use to being wined and dined and now Cloyd expects her to be home. "He thinks I should just be here all day and dust." p141
Cloyd never really asks Silvia where she is going or who she is with. He seems to show that he is bothered by her being gone when he gets home but I never read that he forbids her to go out. He will ask Sonny her where abouts but only Sonny. She seems to always leave while he is at work but tries to get home before he gets back. I'm not sure if this relationship is going to last. Maybe Silvia will realize that by her and Sonny being unhappy their life at The Flowers is not worth the stability she seeks from Cloyd. She made it on their own before Cloyd and maybe now that Sonny is becoming a young man he will be able to help Silvia if they were to get out on their own.
Stability is always a plus but when it comes from someone who is making it unpleasant then it can be more damaging than good.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
One Scene...
The scene that I can most relate to in the novel, The Flowers is when Sonny is laying in bed listening to all the sounds around him coming from the surrounding apartments. "The walls of the bedroom and ceiling creaked with a fump fump fump from above, not where it really was. I could hear the kind of air that didn't move, if I listened for it. There was music in it, and the sounds spun lines, squares and triangles and circles, colliding and crossing and twisting into new shapes, and then I'd be dreaming. p.116"
The reason I can relate to this scene is that I have a hard time falling asleep at night like Sonny. He has alot on his mind as well as I. Sonny has alot of responsabilities around him. He pretty much takes care of himself and he is trying to be there for his mother and her choices. In doing so he takes on the odd jobs around the apartment complex that Cloyd asks him to do to keep the peace around the home and also for himself to get away from Cloyd and his Moms issues. Sonny also finds himself taking on the burded of Cindy and her lonelyness with her living situation. He also takes on worring about Nica and her home life. He has alot on his mind and shoulders at such a young age.
I have alot in my life going on too. I am a single mother of two wonderful kids. We live with my parents who are a true blessing to me, but at times it is hard to raise your own kids when there are two other voices trying to put input. I take care of other people's kids during the day and I take care of my grandmother who is suffering from Dementia. My childrens father is dieing from a long battle with Multiple Sclerosis. I take my Babies every other weekend to go see their father 3 hours away. It is a very hard time for my kids but every moment spent with their father is a memory that they will cherish when he is gone. I am mentally and emotionally tired. But in all this chaos I have to stay strong for my babies and for all those around me who count on me.
At night I too have to lay in bed and listen to all the sounds around me. I have to allow my mind and body to relax and go with the sounds. Sometimes I have to lay in bed and put soft music on in order to fall asleep. If it is too quiet my mind starts to run a thousand miles per hour and I begin to stress out; hense I cannot sleep! So in order to have a good dream or a dream at all, the soft music or the sound of the cars and wind outside help me to keep my mind at peace just like Sonny.
The reason I can relate to this scene is that I have a hard time falling asleep at night like Sonny. He has alot on his mind as well as I. Sonny has alot of responsabilities around him. He pretty much takes care of himself and he is trying to be there for his mother and her choices. In doing so he takes on the odd jobs around the apartment complex that Cloyd asks him to do to keep the peace around the home and also for himself to get away from Cloyd and his Moms issues. Sonny also finds himself taking on the burded of Cindy and her lonelyness with her living situation. He also takes on worring about Nica and her home life. He has alot on his mind and shoulders at such a young age.
I have alot in my life going on too. I am a single mother of two wonderful kids. We live with my parents who are a true blessing to me, but at times it is hard to raise your own kids when there are two other voices trying to put input. I take care of other people's kids during the day and I take care of my grandmother who is suffering from Dementia. My childrens father is dieing from a long battle with Multiple Sclerosis. I take my Babies every other weekend to go see their father 3 hours away. It is a very hard time for my kids but every moment spent with their father is a memory that they will cherish when he is gone. I am mentally and emotionally tired. But in all this chaos I have to stay strong for my babies and for all those around me who count on me.
At night I too have to lay in bed and listen to all the sounds around me. I have to allow my mind and body to relax and go with the sounds. Sometimes I have to lay in bed and put soft music on in order to fall asleep. If it is too quiet my mind starts to run a thousand miles per hour and I begin to stress out; hense I cannot sleep! So in order to have a good dream or a dream at all, the soft music or the sound of the cars and wind outside help me to keep my mind at peace just like Sonny.
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