The Glass Menagerie....

 The Glass Menagerie by Tennessee Williams was an intersting and sad read for me. I found that all the characters in the play write were all suffering from loneliness and from broken dreams. They are long-delayed but always expecting something that they can live for. With the absense of the Man of the house who abandonded his family to fend for them selves creates the main setting for everyones broken dreams and self-esteem. "He was a telephone man who fell in love with long distance; he gave up his job with the telephone company and skipped the light fantastic out of town..."(5) Even though the father abondonded his family they still kept a portriat of him on the mantel. Amanda who plays the mother is very hard on her two grown children. She pokes and pokes at them to better themselves for their family and their future. "What are we going to do, what is going to become of us, what is the future?"(12) Her daughter Laura has low self esteem and never finishes anything she starts. She didn't finish school because she was self-conscious about herself when she had pleurosis. She did poorly on her tests and therefore never went further in her study's. She pretty much excluded her self from the social scene. In this she does not have any gentlemen callers banging at her door. This worries her mother Amanda. She worries that her daughter Laura will become a lonely old maid. But Laura does leave the home during the day and explores the city. she takes long walks and goes to the musuem and visits the bird houses at the Zoo. She goes to the movies sometimes and she spends her afternoons in the Jewel Box, a big glass house where they raise the tropical flowers. She finds beauty and wonder in her little glass collection of ornaments so delicate like her.

As for her son Tom he had to take the role of the man of the house. He took up working in a warehouse basement making shoe's. "You think I want to spend fifty-five years down ther in that-celotex interior! with-fluorescent-tubes! Look! I'd rather somebody picked up a crowbar and battered out my brains-than go back mornings! For sixty-five dollars a month I give up all that I dream of doing and being ever!"(23) Amanda, Toms mother thinks that he is selfish. That all he thinks about is his self. But Tom states that if he were selfish he would be long gone just like his father was, to leave her and her sister to pick up the broken peices of their lives. Tom compares his life there at home as being nailed shut into a coffin. "You know it don't take much intelligence to get yourself into a nailed-up coffin, Laura. But who in the hell ever got himself out of one without removing one nail?"(27)

This is very sad to read. It is such a grey and somber life for the three of them. Amanda wants her daughter to find a man to marry to take care of her. That is the only way she see's that her daughters future will prosper. She never mentions that she is intersted in her son Tom finding someone to tie down with and make him happy. She only focuses on Tom helping find his sister Laura a gentlemen caller. And that mean while Tom should continue supporting them until then. "I mean that as soon as Laura has got somebody to take care of her, married, a home of her own,independent-why, then you'll be free to go wherever you please, on land, on sea, whichever way the wind blows you! But until that time you've got to look out for your sister. I don't say me because I'm old and don't matter! I say for your sister because she is young and dependent."(35) That is so sad that Tom has this preasure put on him, but also sad that Amanda feels that she does not matter to anyone. This is all the damage that the abscent father has put on his family. Three very lonely and lost people trying to find their way into the existence of the world ahead of them. In the end Tom does leave his mother and sister to live his life. Still a lonely life full of wonder and worry of what he left behind. Wow...            

Mariners Description....

Kevin G.
Jorden C.
Kelly F.
Audrey S.

The sailors are characterized and descriptions are as follows:

"the most showy and gallant figure, so far was apparel went , any where to be seen among the mustitude.  He wore profusion of ribbons on his garment ,and gold lace on his hat, which was also encircled by a gold chain and surmounted with a feather.  There was a sword at his side and a sword-cut on his forehead, which, by the arrangement of his hair , he seemed anxious reather to display than hide.  A lands man could hardly have worn this garb "(148)

 The ship-master was very showy just as Pearl was with her garments.  He seemed to make a connection with her because they both chose not to conforme with the norm of the people around them.



The swarthy-cheecked wild men of the ocean, as the Indians were of the land. p155
Their skin was dark and worn  and they were wild just as the Indians were. Puritains feared the Indians as Hester should fear the Sailors the same way.

They gazed wonderingly and admiringly at Pearl, as a flake of the sea-foam had taken the shape of a little maid, and were gifted with the soul of the sea-fire, that flashes beneath the prow in the night-time. p155
One of the seafaring men-the shipmaster, was smitten with Pearl's aspect that he attempted to lay hands upon her, with purpose to snatch a kiss. p155
This explains that the sailors seek female privlages aboared the ship. A virgin is tempting to the sailors that are rarely around women while out on sea so to them this brought  filthy thoughts.

Young Goodman Brown...

Young Goodman Brown by Nathaniel Hawthorne is a very intersting story. I found it to be very suspensful and it kept my interest going. Unlike the Scarlet Letter in which I found myslef a little bored at times. Even though both stories use the same language; Old English it flowed alot more easier for me than Scarlet Letter.

As I read the story I wanted to see what was going to happen to YGB. I couldn't put the story down. At times I had to look up some of the dialogue but all in all I enjoyed reading it. I felt like I was lost in the Woods with him when he was hearing all the voices laughing and taunting him closer and closer to the communion ceremony. I knew right at the begining that the traveler waiting in the woods was the Devil luring YGB to the evil side. When they described his staff, "which bore the likeness of a great black snake, so curiously wrought that it might almost be seen to twist and wiggle itself like a living serpent"(19).  To me the symbol of the serpent is the symbol of the devil. I found it intersting that YGB had scruples (doubt to what is right or proper) about his night journey. But the fellow traveler who carried that serpent staff slowly lures him to continue on his journey deeper into the woods.

YGB continues to find ways to second guess what he is doing and worries about his wife he leaves alone at home. His love of his Life. He is conserned on how she would feel about his choice in this journey. How it would affect her and their pure and inoccent beliefs. Maybe he was questioning who he was and how he was living. So maybe that is how temptation took over him.

A few times I had to rethink if he was truely living the moment or if it was all a dream. Your thoughts can truely play tricks on you while reading this story. I read it twice to make sure I understood what I read. Maybe just maybe I need to re think the story to truely understand what was going on in Young Goodman Browns thoughts.

Difficulty Paper #1 "Scarlet Letter"

In reading the Scarlete Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne my difficulty I am having on reading this is trying to understand the language used in it.  It is not your everyday use of language. I believe it to be Old English. So therefore I have to keep reading it over and over to try and understand exactly what the passage is saying. I find myself having to refere to my little Webster Dictionary just to get through some of the pages.  I like the story I have heard of it many years ago and know that a movie has been made from it but in reading it, it is intersting to read minus the language being used. "Pang" is not a word I ever heard before and now I know that it means "Pain"..."let her cover the mark as she will, the pang of it will be always in her heart" (39).

Sometimes I find myself getting a little bored reading the story only because I can't flow through the story like I could the Flowers. I love reading so I will get through the story but my interest is limited due to the language block.

The Yellow Wallpaper...

"The Yellow Wallpaper" by Charlotte Perkins Gilman was a very interesting short story. Not really short alittle long but interesting to say the least. I felt alittle angry when reading how the poor lady who obviously was suffering from some stage of depression was kept locked up in solitare and away from the world.

One would think that when one suffers depression that the best thing would be to surround them with Love, Friends and Family. She never got to play or hold her baby. That made me sad for the baby and her. She never really left that room with the yellow wallpaper. Maybe just a hand full of times. That alone would make a person go mad!!

In the story she explains how she love to write and that her husband who is a doctor forbids her to write. "He says that with my imaginative power and habit of story-making, a nervous weakness like mine is sure to lead to all manner of excited fancies, and that I ought to use my will and good sense to check the tendency. So I try. I think sometimes that if I were only well enough to write a little it would relieve the press of ideas and rest me."  This right here makes me sad for her. They are not letting her express what she is feeling inside. I don't blame her for thinking that she is trapped in side this room of yellow. It is her that she see's becoming one with the room. it is her that she feels is trying to escape the bars that hold her in that yellow wallpaper. I wanted to scream for her. I felt like I was going to go mad along with her!

I feel so angry that she felt she couldn't speak about her feelings to her husband or too any one that was there to take care of her. "I don't know why I should write this. I don't want to. I don't feel able. And I know John would think it absurd. But I must say what I feel and think in some way--it is such a relief." She is totally crying out but in her own mind.

I love the end of the story when she knows that their time is almost up to head back to their original home and leave this mansion and the room with the yellow wallpaper and the misterious lady stuck behind it. She locks herself in the room and throws the key out the window to buy her time so she can release the misterious lady from her intrapment of the paper with the wild design. She works all night and day to rip that paper off the wall and succeeds to release her. "I've got out at last," said I, "in spite of you and Jane. And I've pulled off most of the paper, so you can't put me back!"

Great story!! :)

 

Imitation...

Be a good girl...
Don't fight with others!
Share your toys with others...
Don't leave your clothes on the floor!
Keep your room clean...
Always say yes Sir no Sir!
Respect your Elders...
Do your homework!
Don't get detention at school...
be on your best behavior!

The Story of An Hour....

In reading the short story..."The Story of An Hour" I found it very interesting to see the way the Author chose to use emotions in a roller coaster sequence.  In the the story Josephine Mallard is home awaiting the arrival of her husband. When her husbands good friend shows up to her house and has to break bad news to Mrs. Mallard. There was a really bad railroad disaster and her husband Mr. Bratly Mallard has been one if the many passangers to be named as diseased. She broke down in her sisters arms weeping with wild abandonment.

One she found her self done with the weeping she asked to be left alone and headed off to her room. In her room she found herself pondering with mixed emotions! Her she realized that she was no longer crying of sadness but more of over joyment.  She found the words leaving her lips over and over..."free, free, free!"

In reading this I sence that her relationship with her husband was not a happy loving one. For why else would someone react in the way she did by saying free? She must of felt traped to be married to this man she called her husband.

She knew that when the time came to see his body she would once again weep. To see "the kind, tender hands folded in death; the face that had never looked save with love upon her, fixed and gray and dead." She also knew that that bitter moment would end and that the years to come ahead would belong to her. And she welcomed it with open arms.

That is pretty deep to see that someone feels free from some one they were supposidly in love with.
She claimed to have loved him at times but only sometimes. How could some one love someone at times? Love just doesn't come and go! Relationships have their ups and downs...this I know!! But why would she have stayed with this man for however long if she felt unhappy and unloved? Now that he has passed away she reconizes her true feelings and her soul is crying out.  "Free! Body and soul free!" she keeps on whispering.

She finds herself pondering on the idea of living the rest of the years, Spring days, and Summer days and all sorts of other days just her to be her own self. She prayed in happiness that life might be long. when only yesterday she shudder at the thought!

When she composed herself she went out of her room to join her sister and husbands friend Richard who were both waiting for her to help her get through this difficult time. As she joined them down stairs there was someone entering the front door.

In enetered her husband Mr. Brently Mallard.  He had been far from the scene of the accident and was not even aware it had occured. Mrs. Josephine Mallard let out piercing cry!  She was pronounced dead of a heart disease--of the joy that kills by the doctor who was called in when she collapsed.

This ending I found very interesting. It was definatley the Climatic Moment in the story. It is sad and silly at the same time. She felt so trapped that when she heard of her husband being dead she found herself elited with happiness and freedom. But when she saw him standing at the door she went into shock of disapiontment and died! She did find a way out by dieing and leaving him but I don't think it was truely the way she had invissioned it!

Very intersting ending to this story!